The Evolution and Function of the Ego
The ego, or personal self, is a product of millions of years of evolution. Its primary function is to create a sense of individuality by personalising the non-personal events occurring in your body and mind. This process transforms raw experiences into personal narratives:
- A bodily sensation becomes “I’m hungry”
- A physical discomfort becomes “I have a headache”
- An emotional state becomes “I’m afraid”
Early Development and the Emergence of Self
Before the age of 18 months, infants lack a distinct sense of self. They experience sensations, emotions, and perceptions without attributing them to a personal “I” or “me.” Once the ego develops, it begins to claim these experiences as personal possessions, marking the emergence of self-awareness.
The Ego’s Role in Trauma and PTSD
In the context of trauma and PTSD, the ego applies this same personalizing function to symptoms and sensations:
- Physical sensations in the gut or heart are interpreted as “I’m anxious” or “I’m afraid”
- General discomfort is translated to “Something’s wrong with me”
Cultural and Family Influences
The functioning of your ego is significantly shaped by your family background and cultural context. As it personalizes experiences, it also incorporates:
- Personal values and judgments
- Family beliefs and attitudes
- Cultural norms and expectations
The Amplification of Negative Emotions
The ego’s tendency to personalize can intensify negative emotions. For example, instead of recognizing fear and anger as signals that something is amiss, individuals might interpret these feelings as personal flaws, thinking, “Something’s wrong with me for feeling this way.”
Neurological Impact
The combination of ego personalization and internalized judgments can create negative thought patterns that become entrenched in the brain’s circuitry. This process of “neurons that fire together, wire together” reinforces these patterns, making them more persistent over time.
Understanding the ego’s role in shaping our experiences and responses, particularly in the context of trauma and emotional challenges, can be a crucial step in developing healthier coping mechanisms and more balanced self-perceptions.